Tomorrow I am going to drop off the child support / daycare support we both agreed on. She maybe with the children waiting, or she may have dropped them off at daycare. I was thinking of asking her why she wanted me to see someone right away after she filed --- { as if I didn't care about our marriage and history together }. I was mad when she said that, but I kept my cool. I couldn't just go out and date someone out of the blue...or go out attempting to get laid. I know of many women whom have been interested in me before / during / after our relationship....I just wasn't interested, and I am currently not interested....
I was abusive verbally, physically to her....I recognize these and will continue to repent to what I did to her.....If she no longer wants to hear my sorries.....then I know that I have my entire life to repent by being a better father to our children, better man, better person....
I get flashes of what I did to her....I tell myself that she a least could have asked for seperation....not a divorce....
I know I am going out in a tangent....I am just relieving some tension....
I will keep on DBing...Patience...Patience..you never know...
