I guess, I am stil hurt. I felt backstabbed by the person whom I called friend, whom I trusted with everything. I never thought of her to be how she is now. I know that I am putting everthing on her shoulders, and I do recognize that I contributed to why our marriage went south, I just feel that she could have at least have made some kind of gester or a word to let me know that we could make an effort to save our marriage; that WE could have done together to save the marriage. She would tell me that we didn't have anything in commom; then what about our children; we both love our children......Just a gester, just an e-mail, just a call to tell me, one moment in time could have saved our marriage.....just one.
Call me a simple romantic....I know that if she would have said....Let's try for our children....I would have not pressured her....given her space...shown her the new me....The man she marriad and looked up to. I know that she loves me. HOW? I see it in her eyes. I see this when I pick up our children, and drop them off. I try not to say much other than "HOW ARE YOU DOING".
