Do what you have to Sara and get this chapter in your life closed. Then you can begin a new chapter in your life, that's full of love and joy. You cannot move forward until you get H out of your life.
I know you are hurting and I'm sorry, from what I've read you are unquestionably a strong person. You will get through this, you will move on with your life, this nightmare will have a ending. Thank goodness for your parents. Keeping you in my prayers.
Jeff from St Louis
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never