I kind of feel like you are a friend after reading your posts for just a few days. I'm so down today. I feel like I've hurt him too much for him to come back. Maybe I just don't deserve him. He's such a good person. I half toyed with the idea of telling him to just go for the D and make me the responsible party.
But there is a tiny scrap of myself that wants to fight to get him back. I have been with him since I was 16. I am not me without him. I simply don't want the empty life that I will have if he never comes back. I love him and find it hard to breathe thinking that this is it.
I know. I have to pull myself together or I'll never be attractive enough. This isn't about winning anything either. I love him and want to grow old with him. God, how does anyone just move on?
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
