Yep, some DIY bites! But, think of the money you saved and think of the satisfaction of seeing the finished work and knowing that YOU did it. (Sort of how God looks at us, He sees the finished product but just needs to prep us, get rid of the rot etc, in order to make us into something beautiful. )
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Argh.... I spend way too much time in my own head... trying to make sure I don't make any mistakes .... who am I kidding? Of course I'm going to make them... heck, I'd be dead and sitting in the clouds sipping strawberry smoothies(cause we all know they're heavenly) with the angels.
Some may look at my attempted relationships as "mistakes" but I choose to see them as my effort to seek God' will. I prayed moved forward and He taught me things for future uses. I did not compromise my integrity.
One sister appreciated the flattery of being pursued and is a better friend (I would see her at church all the time but a couple months after our "break up" conversation, she specifically sought me out to thank me for taking a risk to "court her."
The other sister also saw my efforts and concern for her well. While courting her, she got in a major accident, was really banged up but nothing broken or really serious but hurt nonetheless. I was extremely supportive, was able to chauffer her around for several days etc. She may now think I am too much of a work in progress, the way I desired to NOT continue the communication in the future. It is complicated and much to do with her, our history and other issues but I sought counsel from my closest friend and also prayed about it. I am at peace with how things ended.
She also has a number of really nice outings to reflect upon plus an ipod I surprised her with. I really could not afford it but bought one and gave it to her because I wanted to help her in her growth and supplied her with bible teachings I thought she would also benefit from. I also loaded it with tons of music she did not previously have.
Was I out of God' will? Did I fail since these fledgling relationships ended? Me thinks not.
Committed2Him- "C2H" All Things (Back from Spain!)...18
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