Wishing you and everyone out there a Happy 4th. Hope you are enjoying the summer.
Me...I am taking things one day at a time and truly enjoying my kids this summer. Watching them have a great time...telling me camp stories and hanging with their friends in the evening.
As far as H is concerned...I had put him on the back burner. Hadn't thought or heard from him much since last week. He came by to take d13 out to lunch on saturday. I was out with s16 and didn't see him at all.
On sunday he called and asked if he could come by before work to see d13. I told him no problem. He came over for quite a while. We watched a baseball game and s16 even sat in the room and watched with us.... a small miracle.
H asked what we were doing for the holiday and i told him i was going to try to get tix for the minor league team in town. Not sure if s16 will be joining us (he may have a party to go to) but I thought it would be fun. H said that he could get great tix for free from work...he would just have to ck with his boss to see if they were available.
Upon hearing this...d13 asked if he would come with us and he said he would. I told him if he would prefer to take d13 with 2 other people (his parents, whoever) I would be fine with that. He said he wanted me (and s16 if available) to go.
H tried the dinner I made and took a nap...then ran to work. He asked if he could stop by after to see d13 if he got out early enough and I told him that would be fine as he now will not see her again until friday.
He sent a tm to me from work around 8 asking if I was hungry. I wasn't but invited him by to see d13. He came over and hung out. Did a lot of reminiscing with d13 about her birth, s16's birth and misc. other events in our life. Weird.
At one point I went into my room and when he asked why i was in there i told him that I thought he might want some alone time with d13 and I thought I would give it to him. He said he was enjoying the time we were spending and asked me to come back out.
All and all a nice evening. Couldn't help but think "what does he want" but kept that to myself. I am such a skeptic. Is it the new insurance card for eye care or something with the house papers....or is it just he wanted some time to hang. Whatever. Just gonna go with the flow.
We will see what happens for friday. Whether he gets the tix or not. I am sure hoping he does. Will be nice for d13. I know she truly enjoyed the time we spent last night. She was so herself again ....no sadness.... just being a kid.
I am praying for my H...i just don't know if he will ever do the work to come home. Last night felt so easy....but I know that it is not reality.
