Hi, I'm new to the forum.

[The Wifey]

((((Trip,One Day)))

Thanks so much for your words of wisdom. I really can use all I can get.

This weekend actually turned out well. He came to the house and said he'd read my emails and had been doing a lot of reflecting. Then he said he would like to ML to me. I'd been open to it, as long as he initiated.

Suffice it to say it was very passionate. I had my hair done nice and the house clean before he came. He told me several time ILY and I always will.

I let him know that I wasn't expecting him to just drop how he felt. I just wanted him to know I loved him. I know I've hurt him in the past and I really didn't want him to think because of the ML that I would value his feelings any less.

This was a 180 because it was just the other day that I cried and begged him to reconsider the separation.

After he mowed the lawn he agreed to take me for a motorcycle ride. (My first with him.) I followed him to his mother's house -because he didn't want to ride on our gravel/dirt road - and we went for almost an hour. It was great and I had a big grin the whole time. I told him later I felt like the luckiest woman in the world.

The time with his parents was nice. We had pizza, then angel food cake and ice cream. S19 even managed to show up even though he had to be persuaded. Afterwards he took off on the bike and I went to a grad party for a bit.

He got soaked in the rain on the way home. After he cleaned up he went to the movies.

He came back later and spent the night! I was just friendly and loving. We cuddled on the couch while he watched a movie until bedtime. He said what a great weekend it had been and wished all of our times together could be like that.

Sleeping with him next to me was so very precious! This morning I said ILY; have a nice week. No begging, no expectations. And I felt ok about that. I even surprised myself.

BTW -I talked with the C about the ML. She asked if I felt bad afterward and I said I never do. It is more than sex, it is how I show and receive love. Then she said there is nothing wrong with keeping that connection so long as I feel ok after.

All in all a good weekend of doing more of what works and less of what doesn't. We avoided heavy R talk most weekend, except H brought up that our having had separate checking accounts for so many years was odd and felt it was a trust thing. I told him that I trust him completely and when he tells me its the right time that we would have a joint account.

I feel good how things went.