Hi Distressed, are you guys in MC ? I wish you could talk to my H, you sound so much like where he was at a few months ago.
Focus on the new you & be the best you can. One day at a time. Somedays, one hour at a time. Some hours, one minute at a time.
hugs
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.