Bring on the Rain - Part 3

[SueS]

Hi Sheila-

I'm okay. I thought about posting a lot this weekend but just didn't get a chance.

My parents came in town for the weekend. They went to our storage unit with me to get a bunch of D4's clothes she wore before. I sent the clothes home with them. My niece is taking them with her on a church trip where they volunteer at a shelter that houses a lot of teenagers & pregnant girls. She said that they have to collect things to donate, so I sent 7 LARGE bags full of clothes for her.

Since the 4th is only less than a week away and I was thinking about going home for it, we let D4 go back with my parents today. I'll go out on Friday and spend the weekend & bring her back. She was pretty excited. When she called a little bit ago, they'd just gotten in from using the slip & slide in the back yard. It makes me so happy that she's so comfortable with them & my sister's family.

I did get the summer hair cut I was thinking about. I went from from just below shoulder length up to the hair line. I'm going tomorrow to get some color in it to brighten it up a bit. Should be fun for summer.

H did some odd things over the weekend. On Friday, he called asking what we were going to be doing for dinner. I told him about the restaurant we were going to. There happens to be a pizza rest. right next door. We were almost done with dinner when H walked in to where we were. He acted very nice, but nervous. He talked to my parents a bit. They were nice, but as surprised as I was to see him. He told us that he was going to get pizza and was heading home. On Sat. I forgot the keycard for the storage area. I told him to just leave it at home for me before he went to work. I'd get it later. I was in the waiting area of the salon when he walked in & gave it to me. He was trying to be very, very nice. I denied him sex last night and now he's back to being rude. I don't think he knows what he's doing when our lease is up. I think Saffie is right and he was thinking he could come along until he's ready to go. My mom told me over the weekend that she's scared he'll force his way into moving with me. She blurted out that she feels like she hasn't seen me happy in years and that's what she wants to see again.

You know, I thought about something over the weekend. If H is trying to get back in good with me he's not doing a very good job of it. Getting angry & snapping any time he doesn't get his way? Isn't going to work this time. He left tonight and was very snippy. He said he was going to go hit golf balls. My opinion is that he'll be back around 8:00. That give him the 1/2 hr. it takes to get from OW's work to home. She takes a break from 7:30-8:00.

Well, I need to get a few more things done around here. I'm okay. I'm just tired. I'm mentally & physically tired. I thank God that I have D4. I truly do. She's honestly stopped me from letting some dark thoughts go any further than thoughts. I thought about how easy it would be just to get it over with and not have to deal with the pain any more. But, that would just create more pain for others. And then, I wouldn't be able to watch my beautiful little angel grow up. Thank God for her. I've come to far in this whole mess. I can go a little further.

-Sue