I was not excited, not even in driving over to the small restaurant where we met for dessert. There were no butterflies, before or during. He was nice enough, but there was no spark. He talked a lot about his baseball card collection. He lives with his brother, has never been married and no kids. I could tell during the evening that he was much more into me than I him. I have to contact him to let him know that I don't see it going anywhere.
Dumb question--what is the best way to do that? Email, phone (ick)...? Anyone have an idea of what to say?
I feel like I'm too old to be learning how to date--really never had to navigate these waters, being with x my whole adult life.
It seems like too much work, trying to find time in my schedule so it doesn't impact my time with the kids...
I really, really liked being married. This sucks. Not the way things are supposed to be at this stage of my life...
I miss the companionship, the partnership, the friendship, the contact....and don't really see where there is time to develop that, start all over again. I don't want to start all over again. And there are no prospects currently in my life, so I would have to work at finding a potential mate. I don't have a lot of confidence that I would be approached first (x is the only person in my life who approached me romantically--there have been 3 or 4 others who showed interest, but only after I had indicated that I was interested first). The pickings seem extremely slim out there.
I guess all that means that I'm not really ready. All I can say is bleh.
Back to my life that is very full, and good. Kids, family, career, house, church, learning about myself, my art, daily living. But no love life; I don't see that vacancy closing anytime soon.
