Well, after my minor blip yesterday morning I've had a fab birthday weekend. My friends really came out on tops and I think I've managed to create a semi masterpiece in my pottery painting today! I've also eaten enough cake to last me a lifetime. EVERYONE seemed to make me one and it seemed rude not to eat... it kind of reminded me of the Vicar of Dibley Christmas dinner episode for you Brits out there!

Anyway, I feel pretty good overall, a tiny bit sad at not hearing from him and also recovering from a slight hangover and lack of sleep.

H update, no happy birthday text. To be honest I think he's forgotten. He sent me a text yesterday in response to my text sent on Wednesday about breakfast next week saying -

"Hi. I was wondering if you'd like to meet at (our favourite chain of breakfast restaurants) in Marylebone on Tuesday? I've got a half-price voucher!"

He then sent one 45 mins later saying "for breakfast I mean".

I thought that was a small chink in the armour. He obviously reassessed the text which means he thought about it and he has tried not to show any weakness and I see that as showing a bit of a weakness in the facade. I know it probably means nothing but it kind of says to me that he is playing some kind of game in the waiting to reply to me stakes. It is a huge form of control as he knows that it used to majorly bother me if things weren't organised and he didn't respond.

Well, I haven't replied yet as I thought he could wait a bit. I'll probably text back tonight - should I just ignore the fact it's my birthday, I think it would be a 180 to show that I'm not bothered if he does realise. He has yet to tell me a time (it is like pulling teeth having to do this) to meet. The other good thing is that he is coming over to my work area of London to have breakfast; it is a bit of a trek for him from his office and flat. He isn't making me do all the running like before. He could have easily said Kings Cross which is in the middle for both of us and he has chosen one of our fav restaurants although I don't read much into that.

I thought I could reply

'That sounds good, what time?'

Thanks everyone, and thanks for your birthday wishes :-) I've actually had the best birthday in about 4 years!


M- May 2006
D - Aug 2010
Now travelling the world