IT's been so obvious he is done since day one, and I really do not think any amount of DBing is going to help.
I loaded in some boxes today, and while the girls are gone I'm going to start packing up his stuff. I desperately love him, but feel like I've been fooling myself all these months, and just staring at all his stuff, our wedding pics on the wall etc, everything, just kills me.
I figure if he asks I'll try to make it look like i'm being "helpful" and respecting his decision ,but in reality, I"m just still as devestated as the day he dropped the bomb. I just cannot take it anymore.
My hat is off for people that do this for months and years on end. Those that can handle the OW and OM. Clearly, I am just not strong enough. I love him so much, and just still cannot believe this nightmare is happening. I can't deny it anymore. IT's clear God has other plans for me. I just wish he could stop for a bit.
I feel like I've had my share of a lifetime of people being taken from me. Am I really so bad I just don't deserve love?
Chris
__________ Me:39 H:39 D:8 D:4 M:9 (T 13) Bomb 4-5-08, H moved out 6-16-08, Reconciled and H moved back in 5-31-09 Still doing GREAT a year later!!!
