Where is the real me? What do I want?

[Purple]

Thanks GFI. I'm so glad to hear that u seem to understand what I was trying to say.

I ended up texting back to him before I went to sleep at aaround 1.30am (I know, ringing would have been better but I'm just too scared and tongue tied, plus with texting you can edit what you say! - before sending it of course)

My reply: "U have changed in many ways and they are wonderful but 3 weeks or even 2 months is not a very long time. We have misunderstood each other again. I'm sorry that you are at the end of your rope with me but maybe it's for the best. P"

I got a reply this morning at 8am:
"If we have misunderstood each other again, don't you think we should clear it up? We never do and that always leads to one of us retreating. Of course, that is entirely you choice on whether it gets sorted."

I replied: "I agree with u!"
And then followed up with this about half an hour after that:
"My first text yesterday was not meant to show me retreating. I was trying to open up communicating between us. I just find it very difficult to talk about this stuff face to face so that's why I texted. P"