You seem to be doing ok. I undestand and feel your frustration/pain. I have a history degree as well, and hate my memory sometimes. Many different things come up....sometimes its hard to find the positive things, esp. when all you think about is what went wrong.
Keep your heart with Abby.....because that's where it belongs. I imagine your frustration when it seems your W doesn't care about her. My W and I made it a point to call and say goodnite everynite whenever the other has them overnite. Mostly, it's me calling, but it's something I need to do. I hate not seeing them, probably as much as you do.
Keep it up!
ME:32 WAW:31 D #1: 3.5 D #2: 2 Together: 13 M:6 Bomb Dropped: 2/15/08 Sep legally: 6/18/08
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