July 18th is my Retrouvaille weekend start date. You are right, Sara, it can't come soon enough. I'm scared a bit, though.
Mark, I like listening and nodding. Then I don't have to do anything. I'm just kidding. I'll work at cutting the fantasy apart in writing. I'm just not there yet. I'm trying to get him out of my head a little more first....distance and time first.... Right now my fantasy is real in my head. No matter what everyone says, because it is too fresh, I think OM and I would have been happy in the most important way. The unhappiness that would come with OM would be more of the financial problems, security, loss of my son's time, .....ok, here we go...let me keep listing here what it is would go wrong........OM's temper and can be mean when angry (but of course right now I think we could work through that), living arrangements (he's ready to move in together and get married and I wouldn't be ready for that for a while)-would cause our next batch of arguments, his friends and how they may influence him negatively, I'm good for him but is he good for me?, his jealousy,......well, it's a start
