Does a WAW want you to fight for them?

[cz946]

The anniversary was tough. I went to the ball game with a buddy. My w called in the early evening to see when I was planning to pick our d up. I ask her to keep her for the night, I had been drinking. I didn't mentioon anything about the anniversary. She ask me if I checked my email that day, which I had not. She said she sent me a list of items to pack for my d for vacation.

The next day I checked my email. She had sent me an email. The subject was "Friendship day."

The email said, "I was thinking this a morning about this day, one of the best days of our lives. I think from this forward we should call it our friendship day. A day where we reflect back to all the good we brought to one another and the best thing we share, d.

I hope you’re ok today, I’m staying busy. Have fun at the game and enjoy yourself. "

So I simply responded. "I agree."

Tried to keep it short and sweet. No more pressure.

Last night we had a retirement party for friends of the family.
My d and I got there early, then my w came to say hi and pick our d up. I guess she stayed for an hour or so. She walked in and sat on the other side of the room. I made sure to give her, her space. Its really hard detaching myself from her. All I could think about was running over and giving her a buig hug.

I walked by and said hi., She ask me what time I was picking my d up in the morning. Had small talk for about 2 mins. I told her, her hair looked nice. She just got it done the day before. She told me that the waitress put her stuff on my tab, Ironic. I said no problem and that was that.

I guess the hardest part for me is knowing how to detach. It seems like there is a fine line. I want to get her to miss me, but I also don't want her to think "wow I did make the right decision."

And right now as I am packing for vacation, she is all I am thinking about. I just keep telling my self baby steps and rereading Sandi's post.