I'm pretty down since last night. I thought I was doing good at detaching but still long way to go, sigh.
She seems so excited to leave and live separated. Whenever I remember she were saying she coudn't live even one day w/o me, my heart hurts. She watch youtube and laugh. She playing online game and talks to people and gets all attention from them. Whene I asked how she was so happy and spent her whole time only for fun not thinking about our relationship, then she replied that she was trying to make her mind occupied so doesn't have to be depressed. I barely sleep but she sleeps so sound and well... I don't get it if she really worrys about our R or now.
I had beening trying to detach, GAL, 180 and PMA etc. I hate be deperessed at night before going to bed b/c I barely can sleep. I gotta read forum to find some encouragement and bring myself back.
