everhope...the feelings you are experiencing are normal. I'm a LBH (the ladies here have helped me quite a bit). Read their threads. It helps to better grasp your W's point of view.
a good piece of advice....don't think about the OM. Don't look for the OM. It's not worth it. In this case, ignorance is bliss.
I feel your pain. I'm in the same boat, but have gotten a lot of great advice. Check out my thread if you want some of it!
ME:32 WAW:31 D #1: 3.5 D #2: 2 Together: 13 M:6 Bomb Dropped: 2/15/08 Sep legally: 6/18/08
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