I didn't know how to spell huitspa ;\) LOL

I'm really caught because of the sitch,... he thinks I screwed around on him,... so giving him space... or trying to be friends is going to be a real juggle for me. When do I start doing this, when do I back off. How he even interprets me having a life is a crap shoot... no way to know if he'll just view it as: See, I was right, we don't need eachother etc . Ahhh... no owners manual for this one.

I uhm have been reading some of the other folks sitchs and the depression seems to be a very common item with many of us. How is he ever going to see changes in me if he didn't realize what was "wrong" with me over the last 4 years.... and as said before, is all wrapped up in re-writing history.

The ....er... parasite g/f... of course is a whole nuther' matter. Ah... patience eh? Where we sit right now, as I feel it,... is in a big "void"... just no movement one way or another.

Abbey

T:22, M:20
H:55 Me:45
H-OW PA: N/07
OW Jan08
Bomb:Feb/08
S: Apr/08
Back together Ap1/09-Sept/11
Oct, 2011, uncertain future/H is a mess.
Dec/11 - Doin'friend mode. Some days are better than others.