Thank you Rusty. I appreciate the support. Most of the time, I am upbeat, it's just when I see my H after a couple of months, that it all rushes at me that he is no longer with me.
At the dinner, I don't think he saw even a hint of that longing, as I kept the focus on our son. I did talk a little about the morning our son was born, but he acted uncomfortable, so I stopped.
Our son had a wonderful birthday, and even my husband seemed reluctant to have the evening end, as usually he rushes off after something like this, and this time we all went for a stroll along the harbor and sat and watched the sailboats come into the harbor.
I am working on losing weight. I have a thyroid condition and it not only makes it a bit more difficult to lose weight, it adds puffiness to my eyes, which is always attractive...NOT! So I am working on me and I like me for the most part, just not the aging.
It's funny. When we were first together, people often wondered why I was with him (he was kind of geeky(?)) I was, of course, with him, because I loved the whole package, his mind, his personality, his sense of humor...looks too. I thought he was with me because of the same. But as I got older, I guess my personality "aged" too and he didn't find me attractive or something.
Oh well, positive thoughts. I AM worthy of being loved and I will try to remember that.
Gonna go check on your thread now, Rusty. Thanks for stopping by.
And thanks to you too, imLYN...you are very right. Beauty is only skin deep and inner beauty is best.
Last edited by MP53; 06/27/0811:27 AM.
Married: 25 years Separated: 5 years Kids: 2, ages 21 and 24 Me: 53 H: 50
