Can you be my GAL planner? You get out and DO stuff, right and left!
Neat!
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*hugs*
I've got two choices, stay there in that chaos or remove myself from it. I remove myself and try not to lose the time with D. Sometimes I can acomplish what I'm after, sometimes I can't.
To be honest, I don't think I'm very good at DB'ing.
Maybe it's because I've been trying to DB.
Maybe if I don't try so hard and "just let it happen" then things may get easier.
being the kind of person I am this would be mush easier if there were "step by step" instructions. I function better that way. Since there are no instructions and I feel I have to fly by the seat of my pants then it makes it very difficult for me to stay on track.
I had a good buddy tell me last night that this was just like him and I standing in the surf on the OBX fishing. He told me to "stop trying to figure out what bait to use" and just do what I already knew to do.
Thing is..I don't know if I know what to do anymore.
I don't know what it will take for me to be happy. I don't know if I have ever been happy. Happy like people describe. Happy..just joyful happy, genuine happy. Be in a place where you just walk around with a smile on your face all the time.
There are things I wanted to accomplish and do that I don't think are gonna happen. I wanted to have my kids early in life, retire early, travel. I never did anything after high school because I chose to get married and start a family. I missed out on lots of things.
I gave up lots to make other people happy and probably lost my happiness in the process.
it's probably time for me to try to find "the happy" but to be honest I don't know how or where to find it.
I've always wondered if I'm normal?
So there it is..once again. Buck naked...damn I hate buck naked.
Kathleen, I'm sorry I turned this response into this type post. Deep converstions last night+about 4 hrs. sleep does this to me.
GAL--I'm at the point I don't have a choice. If I sit there with her in her misery then..I just don't know.
I have got to get out. I have to get away. I hate it when I can't stop typing.
F it..it's Friday.
You are just like the rest of us. We thought so much about the other people in our lives we lost ourselves along the way. We forgot what makes us happy. And we forgot how to love our wives.
You will find your happyness. You are well on you way. Keep doing things with your friends and D. Avoid your wife when she is on a rampage and it will all work out.
