Does that mean by converse (or whatever word you use) that it means I want to save the marriage? Not sure.
I want to be able to listen to my gut and make strong healthy adult decisions and love my inner child so that I don't have to rely on love and approval from others (especially h).
I want to be able to talk and communicate with a life partner who I share similar interests with. I want to be able to be a team so we both get the 'me' time we both need. I don't want to sacrifice myself on the cross of 'don't worry about me, i'll be fine'.
I wish my h would take the high road for longer than a week. He has changed some, but I still see 'nasty h' lurking ready to lash out from being hurt. But really, if we're having a competition here (and I know, I know, we are not) I think I have a right to be hurt more than he does. I'm having trouble not being really angry at what has happened in the past. I know I have to get past it but how do you do that in a healthy manner without stuffing it all in again?
** Purple
As soon as you trust yourself you will know how to live. Goethe
