I know it may not feel like it, but you are moving forward. You are becoming unstuck. Although there have been many rough moments you blatantly are becoming stronger through all of this.. so try to remind yourself that it will get better.
Thank you so much for the reminders. It's easy to forget the journey when the eyes are set on the (first or consolation) prize.
It gets better as I get stronger and stay in the now. Accept what is and keep building on what's under the surface..