Where is the real me? What do I want?

[Purple]

Put it this way, I would rather lose him than lose myself again. It's up to me to set the boundaries and learn to be okay with his reaction (pouting, gets hurt, angry whatever). It's not my problem if he acts that way. He has even told me that, but it's still so incredibly hard to put what I want first without thinking that I'm being selfish. Then of course, it smacks me upside the head when h tells me that I AM being selfish. Sheesh....look, what did you say before? You told me that I shouldn't let your reactions dictate my actions. Back off buddy!!