I am working on this "go dark" thing. He texted today about the money issues and I texted back, all business. I ended the "conversation." It's hard to go dark when there are finances tied together. We have our own accounts but we need to pay our taxes off and also split our refund check if it ever comes!
It's not really talking anyways:
H: If you want deposit 200 in my account Me: I will when I get home H: K Me: TTYL
So besides that I am dark! Keep in mind that is the first/only contact since I moved out five days ago.
I am working on me. I have been working a lot this week which has kept my mind occupied. I am working on losing some weight (gained using depo shot birth control. . .thanks hubby!) I am also working on starting my own business. I am going in on Wednesday to get my lisence and going office supply shopping this weekend to get organized. All things that will make me happier and will be beneficial to getting back together with husband should he ever want to try again.
It's hard to think that it might take 6-8 weeks for him to even start to miss me. Let alone how long it will take for him to want to do things together again. It might be shorter but it might be longer. In a way it is kind of a good thing as it gived me more time to do the things I want to do and work on improving myself.
I did not really miss him today. I haven't cried since the day I moved out. It really hasn't been bugging me as much as I thought it would. I still want to know where he is and what he is doing but not to the point of making myself crazy, just a slight curiosity I guess.
Overall I think I feel better emotionally being out of our house than I did when I was living there. It is less stressful this way. Not having the drama (or the potential for drama) to deal with everyday when I go home from work. I come home and do my own thing. It's hard living at with my parents again (hence the "start my own business" plan) because I feel less independent but I will move out soon. This is just a temporary place while I transition.
