Well, the lawyer wasn't as bad as I had it in my mind. I decided I was glad that I called the guy that I know. I met him when I moved back here, he didn't know I was married...and in fact was a little shocked to learn I was.
He told me to come back Monday to sign the papers and have H come by Tuesday or Wednesday. I haven't told H. I haven't decided if I'm going to go ahead and tell him or wait until after the wedding. I kind of don't want contact before the wedding because it may get me to feeling bad again.
Got my hair done and it looks good...I went shopping afterwards and I had 4 strangers comment on how good it looks .
My mom has been out of town and just got back tonight. She said I seemed like I was in a good mood and asked if I felt like I had a weight lifted off my shoulders after talking to the lawyer. Who knows, I am just strangely calm about this.
Thanks for reading my thread Pisces, things sure did take a turn for the worse pretty quick. I have been at this for a year and H pushed me to my breaking point.
No work tomorrow! I think I about have my speech down, so that's good. Hopefully I won't be too emotional at the wedding.
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