waz up everybody...got off work today and had time to burn before the 5:30 meeting at D's daycare, so I went window shopping for a new 42" wide screen LCD TV, also looked at Home Theater systems, new phone systems and DVD players. I'll need all that when I move. W would never let me get a big TV and by damn that's my first purchase when I move..that item will be a PMA booster for sure.
After the window shopping I went by Zaxby's to eat a bite. Was just about done and happened to look up and see the W pull in. I just ignored her and went on to my car to go over to the daycare..I figured there was no use waiting on her, we were in separate cars, she had D with her and if D would have seen me then she would not have ate and W would have been late to the meeting..so I left and waited in the daycare parking lot for them to arrive. They got there and I got D out of car. When we walked in the daycare I decided instead of going to that meeting, I was going to do a 180 and go to the room where all the kids were going to be kept..that's what I DID. W questioned me as to why and I told her I wanted to take that time and spend it with D.
I went in that room with about 10 other 2 year olds and had a great time. They were all over me. It was so much more fun doing that than spending time with a bunch of stuffy adults..I had a good time. W came out of the meeting trying to tell me stuff and I just said, "i'll read all that when I get home."
Got home and W asks, "are you picking D up from daycare tomorrow?" I replied that I had not planned to. Then she said,"you know tomorrow night is the biggest Relay of the year" and I said No I did not know what she was doing, then she went into this tirade accusing me of copying her work calender down and said I knew when it was. I just laughed and came upstairs..I can't get into her calendar..
So picking D up at daycare tomorrow and will run back to over to the house I'm fixing up..will work there Saturday also and have a rafting trip Sunday then golf on Monday after work..Staying real busy..not going to get to stay at my brothers now until Sunday night maybe..we will see how it goes.
I'm all good right now. Trying to stay the hell away from her and do my own thing..
waz up everybody...got off work today and had time to burn before the 5:30 meeting at D's daycare, so I went window shopping for a new 42" wide screen LCD TV, also looked at Home Theater systems, new phone systems and DVD players. I'll need all that when I move. W would never let me get a big TV and by damn that's my first purchase when I move..that item will be a PMA booster for sure.
After the window shopping I went by Zaxby's to eat a bite. Was just about done and happened to look up and see the W pull in. I just ignored her and went on to my car to go over to the daycare..I figured there was no use waiting on her, we were in separate cars, she had D with her and if D would have seen me then she would not have ate and W would have been late to the meeting..so I left and waited in the daycare parking lot for them to arrive. They got there and I got D out of car. When we walked in the daycare I decided instead of going to that meeting, I was going to do a 180 and go to the room where all the kids were going to be kept..that's what I DID. W questioned me as to why and I told her I wanted to take that time and spend it with D.
I went in that room with about 10 other 2 year olds and had a great time. They were all over me. It was so much more fun doing that than spending time with a bunch of stuffy adults..I had a good time. W came out of the meeting trying to tell me stuff and I just said, "i'll read all that when I get home."
Got home and W asks, "are you picking D up from daycare tomorrow?" I replied that I had not planned to. Then she said,"you know tomorrow night is the biggest Relay of the year" and I said No I did not know what she was doing, then she went into this tirade accusing me of copying her work calender down and said I knew when it was. I just laughed and came upstairs..I can't get into her calendar..
So picking D up at daycare tomorrow and will run back to over to the house I'm fixing up..will work there Saturday also and have a rafting trip Sunday then golf on Monday after work..Staying real busy..not going to get to stay at my brothers now until Sunday night maybe..we will see how it goes.
I'm all good right now. Trying to stay the hell away from her and do my own thing..
Hey bro...
Will you buy me a LCD tv? LOL!! Good for you doing some window shopping sounds like a nice afternoon for you.
IMO that was a smart thing to do with W & D2, all that would have done is probably created a scene at daycare.
Interesting 180, that sounds like something I would have done, when your around adults all day, nothing wrong with being a kid sometimes, it was probably dog pile on MFT how cool was that.
Awesome job in walking away from the bait trap, you saw it was nothing more than a cheeseless tunnel A+
Sounds like an awesome weekend planned good for the PMA. You sound good tonight you are less emotionally attached after the last couple of days, way to pull it together!
Can you be my GAL planner? You get out and DO stuff, right and left!
Neat!
If you're looking for man toys, consider this.. the Philips Home Theater SoundBar System. Imagine, Home Theater, DVD player, sub woofer and iPod dock all in one slim package.
Your attitude sounds a LOT better - I'm glad to see it. Especially not reacting to W's attempt at picking a fight. My first big purchase after W moved out was also an HDTV. Worth every penny! Haven't gotten the sounds system. I think I'll wait until I move to do that.
Glad you are having a great time with D. Just be sure you don't use D as an excuse to avoid adult interaction. It doesn't sound like you are, just saying keep it in mind.
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Can you be my GAL planner? You get out and DO stuff, right and left!
Neat!
If you're looking for man toys, consider this.. the Philips Home Theater SoundBar System. Imagine, Home Theater, DVD player, sub woofer and iPod dock all in one slim package.
*hugs*
I've got two choices, stay there in that chaos or remove myself from it. I remove myself and try not to lose the time with D. Sometimes I can acomplish what I'm after, sometimes I can't.
To be honest, I don't think I'm very good at DB'ing.
Maybe it's because I've been trying to DB.
Maybe if I don't try so hard and "just let it happen" then things may get easier.
being the kind of person I am this would be mush easier if there were "step by step" instructions. I function better that way. Since there are no instructions and I feel I have to fly by the seat of my pants then it makes it very difficult for me to stay on track.
I had a good buddy tell me last night that this was just like him and I standing in the surf on the OBX fishing. He told me to "stop trying to figure out what bait to use" and just do what I already knew to do.
Thing is..I don't know if I know what to do anymore.
I don't know what it will take for me to be happy. I don't know if I have ever been happy. Happy like people describe. Happy..just joyful happy, genuine happy. Be in a place where you just walk around with a smile on your face all the time.
There are things I wanted to accomplish and do that I don't think are gonna happen. I wanted to have my kids early in life, retire early, travel. I never did anything after high school because I chose to get married and start a family. I missed out on lots of things.
I gave up lots to make other people happy and probably lost my happiness in the process.
it's probably time for me to try to find "the happy" but to be honest I don't know how or where to find it.
I've always wondered if I'm normal?
So there it is..once again. Buck naked...damn I hate buck naked.
Kathleen, I'm sorry I turned this response into this type post. Deep converstions last night+about 4 hrs. sleep does this to me.
GAL--I'm at the point I don't have a choice. If I sit there with her in her misery then..I just don't know.
I have got to get out. I have to get away. I hate it when I can't stop typing.
Hey MFT! That bigscreen is a great PMA booster! I unfortunately had to surrender mine after years of pleading with W to get one
Keep getting out and doing the things you have always wanted to do and you will find your happiness! I decided I am going to have a MLC I am going skydiving, funny thing about that is I am scared to death of heights....huh go figure! I am going to start doing all of the things that me and the W had talked about and I am going to have one heck of a good time doing them!
Keep your head on straight and we will get through this!
I am going skydiving, funny thing about that is I am scared to death of heights....huh go figure! I am going to start doing all of the things that me and the W had talked about and I am going to have one heck of a good time doing them!