Yes dear Maria it was your line sorrrrrrrrrrrry. I got carried away by the sheer poetry of it all. I know my place, I,m just the warm up before the fireworks begin. Please please forgive me. Why are you still up anyway?
Kalni, if you haven't seen The Princess Bride, rent it! Whenever the Princess wants something, her true love says, "As you wish". Wouldn't that be nice??
I am not sure this fits yesterday's mood you got yourselves into during my absence, but someone sent it to me and I thought it was funny... (the song is about kissing)
I am renting the movie since you suggested it Bbj. naej, I am joking, teasing...
Woog mou, good morning! I hope you are not reading this and you are on that plane... Sunshine
Well, I'm sitting on a Friday morning at work. I don't want to be here. I want to be somewhere with someone.
However, that will to wait a little while. Just a little while....
I'm on vacation next week and I think my heart and mind left yesterday. On Sunday I'm taking the kids back to the dude ranch that we went to for my son's birthday. They had a 3 night opening and since we are "regulars" and somewhat local they called and offered us a deal to fill up their cabins. My kids love that place and they are so good with my kids its amazing.
My 10 year old is acting up lately. He is picking on his brother a lot. I think (dime store shrink) that he is taking his anger with my wife and I out on his brother. He and I had a little talk about that last night and I informed him that it's okay to be mad at me, but not his brother. We discussed some consequences if the behavior continues and he agreed to try harder. He and I are going to spend some one on one time together at the ranch just to reinforce a few things.
I am finding that this situation is affecting me in ways I didn't expect. Apparently I am much more stern at work. I was told yesterday that my team is "worried" about me because I don't smile as much as I used to before the divorce. It's funny, I didn't notice I had changed, but I am sure I have given the feedback. I completely lost it yesterday with a peer (he is a notorious spoiled petualant child) whereas normally I would have maintained my cool.
I guess I am writing this just to journal but I thought some of you who think I have my stuff wired tight would appreciate knowing I'm normal. Or at least whatever passes for normal.
I am tired. Mentally and physically. I'm taking one day at a time and focused on my kids and myself. I am happy however. Sort of a tired satisfaction after a hard day's work when you know you've gotten a lot done, but you know there is a lot more work to be done.
It's funny, recently someone told me not to plan. That's so unlike me not to plan. It's what I do. Everyday for my whole career. But, I'm going to try it. I'm going to try to just go with the flow. To see what happens. Perhaps I will find it takes me somewhere...........warm and full of sunshine soon.
