The W said she was going to come pick our son up around 9. At 10:30, when she still had not shown up, I was SURE something had happened to her. She would NEVER be late to pick up our son, and I was getting extremely scared.
I left the house to drive to her place to check on her to be sure she was okay. About 3 miles from my house, I see her car pass me, so I turned around.
When we pulled up, I was shaking and extremely relieved just to see she was okay and unharmed.
Instead of telling her THAT, I said "Where have you been?" I immdiately mentally slapped myself in the face.
I dont know why I said that....I was nervous, scared, etc all at one time and that's just the first thing that came out of my mouth. She looked at me with an obviously displeased look on her face. I immediately said "What I MEANT to say was that I was scared to death something had happened to you. I'm just SO glad to see you are okay."
She said "yeah..okay."
Trying to reinforce my position, I told her that I know how she is about picking up our son, and when she was almost 2 hours late, I was sure something had happened. I told her I had debated calling her mother to see if she had heard from her, but I decided not to.
I finally was able to give her a hug, and she started to explain where she had been. Something about a "meet and greet" for her company, etc.
I said "Look, it doesn't really matter. All I care about is that you are safe and okay...but I AM glad you got good news about your job. I'm just SO relieved you are okay."
It was obvious I was shaken up...I had tears in my eyes because I had to give my son to her for a few days, and I miss him terribly. After I belted him into the car seat, I closed his door, and told her a few things about him that I felt she needed to know.
Before she left, I asked her if I could hug her again, and she allowed me to bend over into the driver's seat and hug her.
I said "Take care of him for me...he means the world to me. And I'm very glad to see you okay, too."
Then, she left.
I went back into the house and kicked myself in the arse the entire way for "freaking out" like that and acting all stupid infront of her...but most of all, for asking her where she had been in an almost accusatory manner when that's NOT what I was thinking.
Why do the words always seem to come out NOT like I intend them to?! I know i was scared and nervous and relieved, but still....I shouldn't have said that, and I'm sure that she took it as the same-old crap I used to pull.
