Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

Tink - I just had time to read some of the SW book. How do I ever get past all the mistakes I have made??? I can't believe how that book was written for me. I emasculated him daily and I have to believe that there is way too much damage to ever come back from. I thank you so much for bringing the book to my attention - have alot more to read, but I guess, if nothing else, it will help me down the road. I can see I do the control thing with everyone, or almost everyone. I am definitely passing it on to my new DIL. Her Dad made the most amazing toast at the wedding and here is what he said "Women just want to be loved and Men just want to be respected". How appropriate. I did apologize to my H after the toast when we were talking and told him that I know that I never respected him the way he deserved and I was very sorry about that. He did tear up at that point and I told him he didn't have to respond, that I just wanted him to know.
Now I am kind of in the going dark part again, laying low and answering when he calls, not too available, just kid talk. We shall see - but the book will really teach me alot!