And so it begins....

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I’m perplexed about her behavior as well. The only thing I can figure is that she feels less guilty if we are buddy-buddy. I had my self all puffed up and convinced that she was not really for me and that I will one day find somebody new that will be more suited to me. Then she goes and shows me a person that I know would give ample opportunity for reconciliation if I only had a chance. It takes Herculean effort not to get false hope from this.

Yeah, big move I know. I have a friend in Bocas Del Toro which is an island on the Caribbean side close to the border with Costa Rica. He has assured me that between gigs and odd jobs I can sustain myself for as long as I want. Like I said, I just want to drop off the grid and figure out some things. Like who I really am for example.