I am glad that you have time away from the drama. There is nothing weak about wanting to be married. Put it this way, what you have gone through...what would be easier? Moving on, or continuing to try and be married? I know the answer for me.
One looks 'tougher' walking away. One looks 'weaker' sticking it out. The reality, is sticking it out is harder, so let me ask you, which one requires greater strength? The easy path or the hard path?
You're not weak Patrick.
I won't lie this is far from over. Coming from someone who has walked a similar path, vacation trip with OM and all.
Right now, no you don't know if you can forgive her. But right now you don't have too. Its not an answer you have to have right now.
BTW you don't know anything beyond what your 5 sense tell you, so stop making monsters in your head of what they are doing, if you are going to do that, might as well dress them up in clown suits and hope it rains all the time. Got it?
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
