Mulesqb still getting kicked in the a$$

[mulesqb]

Journal - Last night she dropped S10 at baseball practice and S14 at a graduation party. I told her I would pick both up. I did that and got home to find her sleeping in her bed with S7. I got changed and she woke up and said she was going downstairs to watch TV. I put the kids to bed and asked S7 how his day went. He told me about his day but said that he ate dinner all by himself. He told me that my W put his dinner on the table, and then went next door to have wine with the neighbors. I was furious. But I know the kids are way too involved in this so i am wondering if he has the truth or is making it up.

I asked my W this morning and she said he was acting up when she ate with S10 so she waited and gave him dinner afterwards. She claims that she just went outside and was watering the plants while he was eating. I don't know who or what to believe anymore. Even in this state of mind I can't see my W leaving him alone in the house to go have wine. I don't think my S7 should ever eat alone - I am very upset about that.

S14 has a baseball game tonight. My W has to bring him - I will get there by the time it starts. I told my W this morning that I would take the kids to dinner after the game - she said SHE would love to go but it will be too late.

She has been drinking wine every day - she has never been a drinker. She drinks this stupid red wine and orange soda mix they showed her.

Right now we are just existing in the house. She is hot and cold with her moods. After reading Bill's post yesterday I can see this is normal MLC behavior. The shame is that when she is her old self - it is such a tease. It's torturous - it makes me want to hug her and have a romantic evening. But then I realize she tells her father that she doesn't love me anymore and it's not going to change.

Here's to validating, supporting, and unconditional loving!