Bring on the Rain - Part 3

[SueS]

Good morning....or afternoon to you Saffie-

The rollercoaster of H's emotions continues.........

D4 and I picked H up from work last night. His car is in the shop and he set up a rental to pick up today to use until it's ready. On the way home, he was talking to his cousin's husband. They live in CA. I heard him say, Oh yeah, my brother told me that you guys were going to Vegas. Then he talked about how his brother wanted him to go and that now he thinks he will go. Then, he laughed and said, that is, if my wife will let me go. He looked at me. I shot him a....WTF? look. He was flirty the whole way home. I didn't say much. I was tired and didn't know what to say. H got his pillows and laid down on our bed. It took me a while but I finally got D4 to sleep. I showered and went to bed. I thought H was asleep. As I was starting to doze off, I heard him start huffing & puffing like he was mad or frustrated. Then, he grabbed his pillows and went to lay down ont he futon.

Today....H is angry with me again. I woke him & D4 up and got them going. I had to drop H off at the car rental office & D4 at school. I asked H where he wanted me to go first. Response: You do what you want!! Okay. I dropped H off first & took D4 to school. H is renting from the company I work for. I have access to his rental ticket. I didn't see it opened by 8:00 (his res. was at 7:30 am). I called H. He said...WHAT DO YOU WANT? I told him that I was just checking to make sure they got him into a car. He just said YES. Okay then!

I know that H called OW last night on her way home from work. I don't know if they talked. His call to her would have been just after he got mad and left our bed.

So, it appears that H is angry because I'm not breaking this time. I'm not overwhelmed with joy because he used the term "my wife" and I'm not rushing to be with him physically when he's in my bed. I'm tired of being his 2nd choice. I've been his 2nd choice for too long and too many times. It makes me angry that he could do all that he's done but when I don't rush back in his arms I'm the bad one and the one at fault.

SueS