Good for you for putting one foot in front of the other in an adversarial relationship and doing your best.
I'm taking notes on Ian's advice on what to say to your wife. Sounds like words to live by:
"I understand why you would feel that way, I am sure that all will be the way it is supposed to be."
How's the anger, upset, depression? I never wanted to be on medication but view it now as replacing what is depleted in my body. After my meltdown on Tuesday, I figure I'll take the advice of medical professionals. It comes down to pride versus mental well being. Choices.
I've been scarce because things just haven't been good for me.