I cant tell you how much I appreciate you following my thread and giving me advise. I feel like I have been going nutty lately. I didnt see your last response before now, and I guess things worked out anyways.
I sat and read some scriptures today and prayed a lot. On my way home from work, I couldnt take the distance anymore and I kept trying to tell myself that no matter what I need to forgive him, in order to ever heal whether it is with him or not. So I text him.
I said i was going to the mall and plan to be home by 7:00 and i was wondering if he would be interested in coming over for dinner.
He said Sure. He text me at 7 and said that he had just gotten done working and sorry he would be late. I said no problem. I had dinner ready when he got here. We had a good night.
He brought over some movies and we watched one. Then he asked if I wanted to take a walk on the golf course out back with the dog, and that was nice. He was loving but distant and seemed a bit down.
He made some plans with me for our next few days, and actually finally asked if I would like to go golfing this sat. (I had been suggesting it for a while). He told me he loved me and gave me a kiss on his way out.
Overall, it felt like a positive evening and I have to be way more patient than I was first thinking. He has a long ways to go yet until he is out of his fog.
I think that it was a good thing to call him tonight. Sometimes I feel like, my H often feels like I dont accept him. Its not that I dont accept him, its that I get hurt by many of the choices he has made.
I hope we are on the right foot for getting back on track. I feel a bit relieved, what a day!!!! TIPPER
