I can only tell you from my side of things...working on yourself and working for your R, regardless of the outcome, will make you a strong person. So this whole mess will not be for nothing.
What I want to know is that my marriage meant something and wasn't just a way for H to pass the time until something better came along. I am sure your H has similiar feelings. Please don't give up because of the way you feel now, it will get better, I promise.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory