You do really understand my feelings, and that helps me so much. You didn't ever get to the PA like me and have day to day contact like I did, but you do get the idea of the feelings and fantasy that I am involved in. This OM became my boyfriend and he would say things like: "I'd treat you like a queen", "I'd make you so happy", "I want you as my wife", "I want you to have my baby", on top of all the many complimentary things he says. I really do feel he means them all, and I do feel that we would be happy, but long term is where I am unsure. If H and I had more of an intimate relationship, and if we could only laugh together, we would have it all. Can you be happy in a life where there is little or no passion/intimacy feelings and no laughter? We respect each other, but even before marriage, we didn't have "fun" together.
My guess is that we can fix those things, it will just take work and time and me not contacting the OM. So, time it will be. If anyone things those things are unfixable, let me know now.....I don't want to do all of this for nothing.
