Hey hon, Sorry to hear you are going thru such a hard time. Ouch is right! My advice is to follow your heart and be true to yourself right now. I think the basemnt or some sort of seperation might be good too. But it has to go hand in hand with change, if you are going to camp out there to somehow prove as point or punish her then it will do no use, you may as well stay in your bedroom. BUT, and a big but at that.....
If you are going to stay there for space and to find the Man you lost years ago then by all means do it.. and who cares if you cant afford a Counselor right now, you can do lots of reading and working on you until you can afford one. I could never afford one either but I could afford the book The Divorce Remedy, and the book Passionate Marriage.... and with DR I had a journal and I made mini goals for myself .
Example,, by July 7 my H will kiss me on the cheek before he goes to work.....
Sure sounds simple doesnt it? ..... and something so little? ..... but boy is that a prize when you are legally seperated and on your way to Divorce. ( BTDT)
Almost 99% of my MINI goals were achieved.
It is going to take a lot of work hon, and even if in say a year she doesnt change, you will be stronger by then and a different person and you will be better able to handle your life and the curveballs that get thrown at you.
We are all here for you..
What I would like to see for you is for you to focus on you and your well being.. she is having too much fun using you as her "punching bag"
You deserve so much more and so does she she just doesnt know it yet.....
She may be a tough nut to crack , but the calmer you are and the more grounded you are the better. May I also suggest Reading The Four Agreements from Don Miguel Ruiz and The Mastery Of love? By Him also. For you apply it to you... The library has all these books and its free!~
Time to get to work on you.... Take cold shower... just being a smart a**.
No but really how about starting an exercise regime too? Running.. lifting weights.. or just plain walking...
it will help with your Depression. BTDT~
All my best to you hon...
you can do this....
I too have been so depressed it seemed better just to end it... not a god idea... The world is a better place cause you are in it.. a year from now I will bet on it you will agree with me. K? So get your a** in gear.. stop feeling sad and lets see some action. You are going to be the Man you used to be.... it will just take some hard work on your part to get there k? WE are all right here suporting you. I promise~
