I really don't know why I did it, well I do but I don't know why I responded in that way to my feelings when I have been 'training' myself not to do the very thing. All I can say was I was feeling emotional! I sent a text back saying
'Cool, do you want to organise it now? Tuesday is better for me but any day is fine really. Let me know when and where you're ready. Hope you're ok.'
Could there be anymore conflicting messages in there?! - I want you to organise it now, but only when your ready - wtf??? - Tuesday is better for me but any day is fine - basically I'm ready to see you but I'll bend to your every whim.
I was tired and my brain said don't do it, consult the board :-) but my heart said send it, send it. Can I rescue this or should I just leave it and chalk it up to experience and see what he comes up with?
The reason I was a bit emotional is that I had to close my bank account and open one in my maiden name for various reasons. It was a bit upsetting. No excuse though, will try not to beat myself up and at least I can see the conflicting messages.
Just had a really nice evening though on the upside.
