Hi, D! The weekend was nice - Friday evening gathering with friends including kids (my daughter's last year at her lovely little school \:\( so we got together with the class) and Saturday an evening out with adults. Not people that I feel particulary drawn to, but it was a date with my H, so that was nice.

However, no information yet. We're both busy and it is hard to schedule uninterrupted time, but I am starting to get a little impatient, mostly because my anxiety around the whole thing is rising. I hope we'll get a chance to talk tomorrow, because there won't be another chance until next week.

I'm also realizing how really scared I still am, both about more cheating and him deciding once again that he isn't in love with me. Things are/will be different and I have to find a way to deal with the fear. I'm totally premenstrual right now, so it's just as well we haven't talked - the road ahead looks pretty black to me from this point on my hormonal rollercoaster.

Hope you're doing well, down there in the land of the crawdads - crawdads? why does that word come to mind?