Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

Well I have finally somewhat recovered from the wedding on Saturday. It was unbelievably beautiful - if I do say so myself. If anyone wants to see the pictures - they are on http://www.bankspix.com, go to gallery and it is Zach and Courtney in the wedding catagory. I am in the next to last shot dancing with my son. It was an amazing weekend and, if I do say so myself, I did soooooo well. I was gracious and wonderful to my in-laws (who I don't care for) and absolutely fabulous to my H. I spoke to him when need be and was friendly and nice. I didn't pursue or even look for him. He ended up looking for me throughout the night and even found me at one point and said he was looking for me, there had been several songs he wanted to dance with me to and he couldn't find me. We did dance twice and he then wanted to have a conversation to find out what had changed so much for me in the past couple of weeks. That I seemed happy and content, that I must have someone new in my life, etc. I never gave him a straight answer, just told him I had come to peace with it all and wanted to be friends. Was tired of the animosity and fighting and really just wanted to exist in a friendly way with him. It was very late, so I said I needed to go up to my room and get some sleep, so I ended the conversation.
I did have several people ask me if he was gay - which was weird - but the way he only danced with the groomsmen and the WAY he danced with them - made alot of people wonder. That made me wonder, so I guess I am just going to move on and assume he has some issues I don't know about and GAL of my own permanently without him. It is a very weird dynamic now.