I Think I Have Officially DB'd Guys!!!

[sage]

I still can't shake the feeling that I don't really know her...that everything has been an illusion for so long. Having a healthy, loving R seems distant to me...but I don't know whether I've built up some kind of perverse fantasy in my mind of what a "true" R is, or whether my expectations are realistic...

I'm curious to hear more about what you mean by not really knowing w....could this be a good thing? a discovery process? kind of like dating and falling in love all over again? Perhaps I shouldn't throw all that stuff out there since I'm not really sure what you mean...

What about pulling out those "expectations" and getting them on the proverbial table? You can figure out which ones are "reasonable" (whatever that means) and which are not (again). Are those expectations blocking you from enjoying what you have today, right now???? If so, well, you probably know what to do with them...doesn't mean you can't ever have expectations of course, maybe just if you throw them away for now, see what "the day" brings, and gather stuff up again, you'll find that your m is more than you thought it could be. But, as long as you're holding it up and comparing it to that "picture" .... well, it probably isn't ever going to look "just so". But maybe what it's missing "over here" it makes up for "over there"?

Sage