Where, hiya! Hope you got those marks out!? I cant imagine how hard that is, her crying for her Dad, but I was impressed that he was so concerned when you told him and didnt go all rubbish on you and react with guilt, but made sure to tell her he would be round the next day. What you said...
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And H and I... it feels like we are together.. so it feels good.. but it still does suck when he leaves and yet I just smile and say goodbye.
I guess thats how I feel, thats how I describe it to people, but I perhaps am being a little over excited, I dont get kisses for example! Plus, he makes me no promises, I NEVER know when I am going to see him next (but we do seem to have fallen into a pattern). Its hard isnt it? People say to me, its ALL on his terms, his control. I guess thats true of you too? Although, what choice do we have?
We'll keep plugging away hey. (Kalni, what was your "mean" idea?) Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
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You ladies are the best!
Journaling,
So H came over last night. He got here about 6:30pm. Hung out with him for a bit and then I went over to my neighbours place for drinks. D2 and I go to a playgroup on Wednesdays so 6 of us Mom's from the group got together (child free) last night and had some strawberry daquiries (can't be bothered to figure out how to spell it sorry!).. Had a really nice time. I got home around 10pm or so.
H didn't really seem like himself.. not sure if I threw him off by going out.. or if maybe he realized he prefers it when he has D2 to himself... whatever it was he seemed off. As he was leaving I mentioned that he seemed a bit reserved. And he said that he was feeling tired.. and starting to get a little run down. I'm not sure if that's all it is or not.. but I won't know unless he tells me so I'm going to try to not worry about it. He did give me a really nice kiss goodbye though. Which was nice.
Well, I'll check in on y'all later. I've got to get myself and D2 ready for the playgroup this morning.
Maybe he was a little off because you went out. He realizes you do have a life other than with him. Just remember though that everyone is entitled to an off day or moment every now and again.
Another nice kiss!!! I'm getting so envious here!!
Have fun at the playgroup!
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
just wanted to stop by to (((hug))) you and was very happy to find out about all those kisses you get! Way to go :)!
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
((((Where))))) I hope playgroup was fun. Great job on surprising H- I love that he reacted differently to you doing something different. Let's hope it affects his internal workings and gets him moving forwards a bit!
Just re-read through some of the last few posts and remembered that I still need to go buy a tennis ball. Funnily I tried to buy one today but it came in a bag of 18 and I really didn't want to spend that much money when I only wanted one.. and then I guess I got distracted with another thought and it completely slipped my mind. So it's still on my long list of things to do.
As for some other things I've been up to today. Had a momentary slip in my armor. D2's daycare had a graduation ceremony this morning.. so I went to it.. and some of the kids were SOOOO cute and SOOOOO animated singing and dancing that it melted my heart a little... so although it was something to be happy about instead it made me feel really quite teary. I don't think I'm really explaining myself all that well.. I guess I'm just having an off day today.
H didn't call yesterday, which is odd for him. He has only missed calling D2 to say goodnight a few times. I saw this morning that he had sent an email last night.. just giving me a one line sentence to say what he was doing and that he'd call later. That call later came at 11am today.. which I did not answer. So he called my cell phone... which I also did not answer. So he sent a text to my cell phone saying what he was doing and asking what I was doing. I responded a couple of minutes ago as I was busy doing other things (see below).
I applied for another job today. Fingers crossed!!!!!
I also removed a lot of the weeds from my lawn again today. Man, it's exhausting. I wish I were rich and could afford to pay someone to do it for me. I don't have a green thumb, the sun and me do not exactly get along (being a freckler and burner and all) and my back is quite sore from having to bend my 5 foot 9 body to touch my toes over and over and over... and did I say "over"? again!!!!!!!
