It sure seems that presently you are attempting to reach out to someone who does not want you reaching out to them. I know that this is a deflating and difficult thing to process. But process it you must.
I was a bit surprised that you were about to take that step to stop by and surprise her but I just figured that you felt that she would welcome you in doing that. For now anyway you have learned a lesson. If you don't know how already, you need to get schooled on detaching and get to it.
It saddens me that you are feeling the rejection that I know you are. Do not let it push you to anger but instead get to work on you. You were trying to work on her and to appeal to her. She wants nothing to do with that. Work on you and begin to learn how to detach.
If you got any Q's many of us on here can help you get to firm and stable ground. Don't hesitate to ask. This is no sprint it is a marathon. Stay in the race. Run it smart. Jesus loves you brother. Peace and blessings to you.
