HeartScared, I didnt call him last night even though I really wanted to badly. I have been so scared all last night and this morning becuase he is not calling me.
He and I both have no other hobbies/meetings or previous plans for the night tonight. So I would normally expect to see him, but I am afraid he simply is leaving our M again.
I plan on going shopping after work today for some gifts and then I really would love to invite him to come over and eat dinner with me. However, I am afraid that he will reject me. Even worse right now, is that I dont know what he is thinking and I just want to call him to see how he treats me so I can tell if he was just being nice to my face the other night.
I have been thinking about texting him today when I get home from work and saying that I am going to the mall and invite him to come over afterwards for dinner.
I am so torn, I have allready reached out to him twice since my blow up at him, and he is apparently ignoring me. I am so down and out all over again. My stomach hurts and I have not been able to stop crying all day. I am so afraid he wants to end this again.
