Hmmm...just thinking of your sign off there, J. I was about to agree whole-heartedly that all of these "messes" are unfortunate, indeed.
Then I settled in some, and thought about it. Does part of me wish for my innocent trusting nature back? The absolute certainty I had that CJ and I were in this for life? That we'd never cheat? YES!!!!
But another part of me KNOWS that had this crap NOT happened...neither of us might have have woken up enough to start to repair what was a sinking ship.
At least now I KNOW where the holes are, some have been repaired, some are just patched over, some offer a slow leak, while others turn into geysers at times...
But at least this way, I feel less like the whole ship will just slowly drift under the deep blue...sometimes she lists, sometimes she skims over the water under the bright sun...but at least we have awareness and tools to keep her afloat now!
Might I have preferred a more gentle 2X4...like an actual threat or warning or sign of any kind??? YES...would that have been enough for me to make all of these changes, would things be playing out the same way??? I'll never know. I can only deal with What IS.
