I have been feeling down and don't know why, need to get my head out of the sand, my ass in gear and get to work rebuilding my life. (I will need to whistle while I work, hmmm, what song should I whistle, I know: "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life")
Here are some facts about my life and life in general
* My W will never come home * I will never forgive W for what she has done * There is a God (just hasn't been in my corner lately)
In fact, I apologized to God last night, for being such a pest. God has others calling on him that are in far worse shape and need his help much more than me. I've just been having a hard time at it lately, everything breaking down around the house, W leaving,etc. There is so much to do with the kids, around the house, at work.
* Things will get better * Smile and the world smiles with you (try it, it works, as you walk around look at people and smile) * There is calm before a storm, there is also calm after a storm * There are a lot of women out there looking for someone to love (I'm coming, I just have to wait until I get my life in order) * Money isn't everything * Its the path we chose in life thats important. * Both the kids and I won't remember the dirty dishes. We will both remember playing at the pool together or catching fire-flies on a warm summer evening. (I really have to remember this) * Living well is the best revenge. Being miserable because of a former relationship, just might mean that the other person was right about you. * Clean your house before you invite guest over (metaphor for life after divorce) * Its not what you saved but how much you actually spent that matters. (I always heard W and even girls at work say, well, I saved $ or it was 50% off so I saved $) * Woman also like the simple things in life (The simple things in life are all I can afford)
For some reason, I remember this story about Yogi Berra and it just popped into my head:
Yogi Berra goes into a restaurant and orders a pizza, the waiter brings out his pizza and ask Mr. Berra how he wants his pizza cut up, into 6 or 8 slices and Mr. Berra responds, 6 slices please I don't think I can eat 8.
W just called, about my softball game tonight, its on the calendar for 5:45 one game and she calls and asks me if there is more than one game tonight. I tell her everything; she knows when I'm leaving and what I'm doing. She is the one that springs stuff on me at the last minute "oh I thought I told you that" Boy thats irritating !!!!
Well "Always Look on the Bright Side of Life" I hear whistling in my head. I'll find love again someday. I'm going to be happy, helpful, forgiving, patient and loving. I'm a stubborn old German.
We all have a long haul ahead of us, good or bad it's the path we choose in life that's important.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
