I Think I Have Officially DB'd Guys!!!

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The other is that I'm just plain scared. I'm scared to trust her again. I'm scared to give myself fully to my M because I'll be totally exposing myself. And my pain reminds me to be careful. I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THIS AGAIN!!!

Hi again- I too have many doubts...I try to remember the following poem when I am really doubting! I ran across this in high school and have kept a copy of it ever since!

To Risk

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool,
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental,
To reach out for another is to risk involvement,

To express feelings, is to risk exposing your true self,
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk ridicule,
To love is to risk not being loved back,

To live is to risk dying,
To hope is to risk despair,
To try at all is to risk failure,

But risk we must because,
The greatest fear in life is to risk nothing,
Those who risk nothing
do nothing,
have nothing,
are nothing,

They may avoid suffering...but they simply cannot learn, feel, grow, live or love,
Chained by their attitudes, they are slaves who have forfeited freedom,
Only the person who risks is free.

Thanks so much everyone. I think I've gained a bit of clarity today. This was a helpful exercise.

Glad you are doing better....sounds like you feel better about everything today! Keep up the hard work...