Kris - You can do this. You need to do this. The anxiety of seeing the L is much worse than the reality. I'm so sorry your H is putting you through all of this but he is the one with the problem, not you. He obviously has committment issues to say the least. Let him spin in the disaster of his own making. He won't be content in this life he is creating for himself. You're only responsibility is to yourself.
Again, I'm so sorry he has chosen this path but you will find your strength through this experience. It's good that you have a group of friends that you socialize with every week. That's an enormous help.
((((((((((Kris))))))))
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!